Feeling sorry for myself

There aren't many days where I feel sorry for myself but today has been one of those days. For no particular reason, it's been a hard day. Things have hit me all at once lately. I've had a realization that as much as I don't think I'm alone in this walk of life, I know I am. In general, yes I do have an amazing family & friends surrounding me. If faith is factored in, perhaps there's a God on my side as well. But the hard part is being alone on a day to day basis. Coming home each night to an empty apartment. There's no one there to ask how my day went or just check in to see how I am. Or anyone curious enough to just want to know what I'm up to at any given moment. Friends don't call or text much. I'll go a whole week without talking to my family who lives just down the road. Even co-workers have moved on & don't ask me to hang out outside work lately. I have a life full of acquaintances but no true close friends any more. Everyone has moved on & done great things in their lives. I've been stagnant for years now. I used to be the one who kept in touch with everyone but after I was burned by a few good friends who dropped me all at once, I've found it hard to trust people with my heart so I keep my distance from others. What I wouldn't give for a guy to just sit & hold my hand for a while to show he cared. Such a minimal thing. There's a great line in a song that goes "I'd give a $100 to get a letter, if at the bottom it said 'I miss you back'." I'd love for someone to care that much about me. Luckily I have a dog now. He's pretty awesome & wants to be by my side all the time but that's just not the same has human companionship.